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有一点点的甜甜,一点点酸酸,一点点苦苦和一点点辣辣的......

很难过
星期一凌晨3点多
我收到消息说
威润已经离开了人世
奇迹终究还是
只能在小说或者电视剧出现呢

我这样比喻
不是要批评或责怪
只是觉得可惜
坏人终究比好人长命呢
换个角度想
坏人活比较久
是因为要在人世间接受惩罚
而好人比较短命
是因为老天爷爷要让他们上天堂

我心中的威润
我希望不管他到哪里都好
他都是开心的和幸福的
威润哥哥,永别了
我永远怀念你

这几天
我发现我跟他沟通出现了问题
或许应该是我们都很不了解对方
我很努力的想知道他在想什么
烦恼些什么
有时候他说话很没有分寸
这让我有时候很反感
我觉得人到了这样的年纪
应该知道在什么场合
什么应该说
什么不应该说
那天我告诉他我的想法
我说这样的他
让我感到很陌生
也很没有安全感
我真的很讨厌
他总是突然间静静的在想东西
问他,他说没什么
他什么不满都收在心里
过后谈了一阵后
他终于说出了
他说他觉得我在用他多过爱他
我承认顿时我的心是破碎的
我拼命的掩饰
为的就是听他的真心话
他说他不明白为什么
坲丽妈咪说我对他不公平
可是我想说的是时间的问题

格里,如果你爱我
请你不要在对我付出了
再忽视我对你的爱好么?
你认为我不够爱你
那是因为你太爱我

你常常很容易被人左右你的想法
别人说你太宠爱我
你就会一直怀疑你自己
然后就会说我用你
别人说明眼人都看得出你付出比较多
你就会认为我不够爱你
可是你有没有想过这段感情
我也有在付出啊~

我为了让你省钱搭的士
即便你驾车技术再不好
我也让你驾回,只要小心就好

我每次都叫你早一点回去休息
你每次都拖到迟迟回
然后你的父母就会不喜欢
会念你的不是
要不然就是说我赶你回去
所谓打完斋不要和尚
可是你有没有想过
你每次从我这里这样迟回
会让你的父母对我们这段感情反感啊?

谈恋爱不是全部,你明白么?
你没有注意到么?
你的妈咪每次在聚餐跟我说话的时候
都会告诉我家人团聚的重要性
会告诉我要一起吃晚餐
星期日是家庭日之类的
家人也是需要你的陪伴和尊重的

不要老是告诉我
你什么都能解决的
家人那边没有问题的

将心比心
我也会不爽的
如果我的儿子有了女朋友后
就一天到晚腻跟女朋友
忘了跟家人相处的时间

你已经不小了
不要好像都只想你自己要怎样就怎样
要顾一下你家人的感受的

还有你说你不够睡
因为有时候我早上的课
你要陪我一起早醒
所以你根本不够时间睡
你不觉得你这样说对我很冤枉么?
请问我有要求你一定要陪我早醒么?
我好像有跟你说过
我可以自己搭学校巴士去的
是你说不放心
要载我去然后陪我放学的
然后有时早放学
我都有叫你早点回去冲凉
然后早一点休息睡觉的
可是你却总是说我赶你走
等到一切摊开来说的时候
你却都在怪我
请问你有想过我的感受么?
你不觉得很矛盾么?
然后每个人都会责怪我
说是我不够体贴
没有关心你
请问我真的没有关心你么?

我承认我并没有像你那么细心
可是有时候我不说
是不想让你尴尬
也不想变成问题
但并不代表我不知道好么?
你知道么?
我很心痛
看到你郁郁寡欢的样子
我知道你又在开始怀疑我对你的爱
可是我应经开始不想对你解释或证明了
你知道么?
你说我在用你
所以这几天
我什么都自己来
都尽量不让你帮忙
这样你满意了么?
如果爱能拿来作比较的话
那你不是真的在爱我
因为你一直都在怀疑我的真心

还有你知道么?
我很不喜欢每次你跟我在一起
都好像心不在焉
要不就是郁郁寡欢的样子
好像我又做了什么让你不开心的样子
这样的你
真的很破坏我的心情
有时候
我不懂怎样面对这样的你
因为我很讨厌

如果你无法在跟我在一起的时候
很开心或无法专注的话
那么请你让我一个人就好
那么我会开心一点
因为这样的你
让我感觉你很不尊重我
也很不在乎我

我不想跟你吵架
写出来只是让我发泄一下
我的委屈,我的不服
因为我真的收得好辛苦

希望借着这个圣诞节的分开
可以让我们的爱情加温
因为距离会让我们想念
我需要空间休息
因为我认为你也需要空间休息
想一想我们的爱情
到底缺乏什么
到底需要什么

晚安~


12 comments:

我不清楚你们之间到底什么问题, 我知道你之前很受伤, 可是有时你让我觉得你会拿Hugo来比较~~~ 爱一个人需要很多的谅解和包容。。。或许他只是一时迷失了, 你要把他带回来, 而不是在那边自哀。。。
GAry: What is your feeling if she said u r using her??? She is not use u, but just rely on you...

你们俩啊,又来搞什么咚咚啊?其实两个人相处最重要的就是互相包容和谅解,有什么事就忍下,让一下吧..还有别那么容易让人左右你的想法..well gary,i say like dis i noe u sure dont like,but sometimes,when u talk,pls think 1st b4 u say,nt everything oso can tell out 1,once u say it,there will be no chance for u to take bac wat u said..im here nt to involve myself into dis mess,but just the onlooker sees the game best,i jz tell out wat i see..hope next time when i meet u 2,u 2 oredi ok lo..

thankx fei n fel..i tyr my best k..

well sometime something keeps as a secret is more better than release it out...and the Gary i know is always that kind of people who likes to talk 'cock' in wrong time,but when he's already now try to avoid to think like this and he forcing himself not to tell you that you are using him than titi you dont paksa him say it out lo...i think thats only a misunderstanding on both of you...and gary you act like a gentleman la please, how can you say those words to a girl you love,think if 1 day i tell you i friend with you just because you got money you got car im just using you... what would you feel...man you can find some1 to talk to you and write it on blog no matter what but dont say it infront of her ma...okay im too serious now sorry,lets try something epic...is just like"one day you suddenly tell ur mom u want to become tai gam"太监"。。。lolz.... u drop gentleman face gary...if u say what you keep in ur heart is already too heavy for you serious last time your birthday when you all are late i really very angry for that and i can just quit and go back home...but i didn't do that because i know when i really do that the whole party will not going to be happy and you all will talk about me the whole night,and i dont want to broke this situation right now,im sure fei agree with me too cause he's the 1 who very very dulan that night....xD...good friends now is not easy to find what even now you find a good 1 who love you...wake up people now is not the time to just only talk behind others...let those who bet you both will fail drop their eye on the ground....ok la too serious again lets just huiagting and merry x'mas diuzzzz im mad now...xD

aligato kent...u noe i cant write tat well ..who am i going to talk to i sumtimes olso dun noe...i wish to talk to some1 bt seem every 1 is busy with ass i just dun wan to kacau u all do ass mah..

Thx u guys ^^ actually i m not tat small gas juz i really beh tahan liao juz wrote out so tat wont affect my mood ma...during tat gary's birthday, i reli sorry cuz was my fault cuz i forgot to fuel petrol =( 1000 sorries to u all ya...muacks...sek sek fan...dun get mad liao lor...if not dun leng chai liao...
Thx for u guys's support too...actually tis problem, i got think before...sometimes may b he is not sengaja to say out but the listener will sengaja to twist his meaning so the misunderstanding will appear...i told him not to too straight cuz nowadays not all ppl can understand how is his personality one...make ppl misundertand will juz get himself into a trouble...may b i too serious when talk to him bout tis...i noe he dun really agree with my point of view in this mess but wat i can say is i juz wan to protect him...once he control his talkin & emotion, he will get more friends than enemies in the future...i hv faced tis prob before so i told him wat i felt from him...sometime when he talk ppl, lik dun need 'money base' one,but ppl wil tak syok one ler...cuz no one is perfect in tis world...when u critic ppl's bad, hv u think tat u oso not tat perfect? tat's y i told him not everyone can accept his straight straight talk style one...hv to learn one...being serious again le...hehe...
anyway, merry x'mas ya...i m not at KL...dun so miss me ler...i will shy*shy* de...muahaha

thanx every one k..kent i noe i talk cock alway at te wrong time...tat is sumtimes y i din speak much..i olso noe it wont solve problem 1..sry to u all.. make u worry bout us tim..i noe i hav few gu friends only.. u all were my best 1..thank anyway

wow kent,come here write composition ar? or somebody step on ur tail so u tak syok come here kacau? haha.. btw,im nt the one who very very dulan lor,u la,ngap non stop still wan say me o? xD well,like u all said,nobody in this world is perfect.. the thing past oredi let it past lor,dun mention it anymore la.. there will be more gud things waiting u guys at the future.. ok la,enuff edi.. dun wan write so much.. hope everyone happy lar~ merry x'mas~ little gal,dun perasan at there edi lor.. muahahaha..

little gal perasan sudah biasa d lor...hahaha

wuahahahha....ah fei "sik chuen" my purpose tim...xD
..i just want to shout out my beh da han about that day you all come late like what titi did here...xD
gary...if i really not free ah my comp 24 hours open 1 ma dun you see my msn is 24 hours on9...jz open my chat box and type in than i will read it .... even i'm always sleeping and da geing 1 la...xD

walau , so many english words , read until pening.
errr .. i oso tat 1 always talk cock n talk straight n talk nonsense , gary u can be my great partner haha !
juz small matter lah , dun let small thing spoil a good love ok ? everything will be fine.
gary , sometimes many things r not tat serious/heavy as we think , juz cincai treat it lah ! there r so many of us , u can find us talk ma , talk cock oso can ma !
titi ah , juz love n love him lah !
1 song for u all , i wan nobody nobody but u !!

then i shud learn from Ballack to sing "sorry sorry sorry Sorry" liao lol..hahaha

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I think I am a little muddled sometimes and persist in somethings like if I want to do it by my way then I will just go ahead. Well, I am also wild imaginings and be very susceptible to satire. I am also pleasure seeking and curious. Erm..my friends said I am slow in reacting like if I am in dangerous situation, but I still can just stand there to wait the dangerous come towards me...Haha..

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